new loves new life

one or two ? soon we will know--girl or boy ? it doesn't matter
i am just a happy granny to be

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**********mylifeonepictureatatime**************** i miss the happiness a little one brings

well there is a new baby one the way. as i share the news with others, i sense different reactions to the news, although few people say what i know they are thinking. i have shared my desire for a child for so long, that it hardly seems possible that i am not just wishing. and if twins are on the way i will shout to the world and i try very hard to make my dreams come true. i can't find a way to do all that but there is always hope. i have tried to speak with the utmost perfect conversations to prevent any problems like i have had in the past with my daughter, and now a new set of rules are in place. i enjoyed the visit last week with the child that i thought would bring me a sense on purpose and fill a part of my emptiness. it was the sad life he was born into that i wanted to remove him from, and i was not able to do that for him and his sister. it is bad when the parent has a child like attitude and selfishness that hurts those in the family.
i may never be the caregiver again, and i still believe my decision to sever those ties was the right choice. that doesn't make my desire to hold and love and feel that i am providing for a child's needs go away. he will always be a part of who i am, and his sister too, and his parents have changed how i think and have changed the way i will relate to other parents in the future if i would ever decide to have a child here full time with me. yes, every part of my life was affected and made me somebody different just like we all do everyday. the due date is estimated to be march 20, 2009, and i will again have the title of granny to add to my resume. thank you God for babies.